Trying to imagine Sisyphus happy

I don’t know who Sisyphus is. General information says that he was some Greek king in exile who had been punished by the gods to roll a rock on a mountain, but before the rock could reach the other side, everytime, would come back down rolling to the beginning point and he’d have to begin all over again.

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why did Albert Camus make Sisyphus famous?

Man loved myths, man was a French philosopher, man invented the phrase “one must imagine Sisyphus happy”, to which I add “one must imagine Sisyphus winning”. Now, what did he mean? pretty simple- that life has no inherent meaning and we are bound to repeat the same boring tasks over and over again throughout our life, but at least, to have the will to do so, we must find joy in the process. It also reflects the Hindu Philosophy of fulfilling your duties and not waiting for any reward. Now, my peers in academia will be extremely eager to find flaws in my definition and theory. But one thing I know for certain is that the success of Abraham Cowley’s odes was based on his misinterpretation of Pindar’s odes. Maybe I understand why Samuel Beckett wrote his play Waiting for Godot in French- that is to avoid the Anxiety of Influence (a term coined by Harold Bloom)- he did not want to worry while writing if his individual talent is following the long glorious traditions of English Drama or not. Okay, looks like someone got lost in their stream of consciousness . Anyway, how can I connect this all together? This philosophy of Camus has given birth to a school of thought named Absurdism. Absurdism is nothing but the belief that life has no meaning or purpose (I sound like Sadh guru with all this “nothing but”). And from all the bits of pieces of literature that I have mentioned in this paragraph, Waiting for Godot is one such text that flashes out Absurdism- In the play, we are given a time: a certain day and it’s yesterday and tomorrow, a place: a land with a drying tree, the land might be anywhere, and action: waiting. Yet, nothing happens.

Martin Esslin in his Theatre of the Absurd writes how when this play was first staged, a bunch of erudite theatre goer audience was heavily disappointed in the play as they expected the play to have a deeper meaning-which it lacked, but on the other hand, in 1957 when the play was staged before a bunch of prisoners, they could relate to it. Perhaps it was the endless waiting that had drawn them in, or the lack of intellectual show-off. However, the interesting thing is , in Camus’ own absurdist novel The Outsider, the protagonist, Camus’ ideal ‘absurd man’ Meursault, by the end of the play, finds himself in the prison, waiting to be executed. The absurd man according to Camus is the man for whom life holds no purpose or meaning, he who does not believe in divine existence or judgement, and is ‘amoral’- meaning that he is guided by his own integrity rather than the moral codes set by the society. This amorality might lead to the commitment of ‘crime’ by the absurd man (as when Meursault kills the Arab) and might also be the reason why many prison convicts found Godot easier to comprehend than the learned men- to them, the absurdity made sense.

Why did absurdism emerge?

Many reasons. As a response to Sartre’s Existentialism, the growing self awareness of man in this rapidly changing modern world, and one thing that I could comprehend to be the main catalyst is the first and the second world war. Pre world-war man had a blueprint of his life: the pre-Darwinian man would be driven by his divine duties, and a bit more skeptical post-Darwinian man would be driven by his moral and social duties. Suppose you wake up today, you have in interview in 2 hours, this interview is very vital as it determines your livelihood, you are prepared to give your best….and suddenly a war breaks out! by the time you get a grasp of what’s happening, the whole company building is turned to a heap of dust. That makes us question how much of in control of our own lives are we truly?(the closest to this uncertainty I’ve experienced in COVID 19 personally. But let’s not forget that while I’m writing this inside my airconditioned room, half of the Palestinian population is wiped out from the face of this earth as Israel is engaged in committing genocide.) A world where individual life has no meaning and neither can we say that it’s up to the individual to direct it’s course, is truly absurd. So can Sisyphus truly be happy always? nobody can say for sure. Remove Sisyphus from a certain time, situation, and place and he is free to be happy. But rolling the rock in a certain time and space was his punishment. Now let’s take a look at his situation: a punishment that required groundbreaking work but also gave him time to introspect. Now what if he had been sent to a Nazi concentration camp instead, as a punishment- I’d argue how inhumane it is to imagine him happy in that situation. so there is the crux, one must face the absurdity head on but also is ‘happy’ truly a sensible word to use in certain contexts? However, it is what it is. If or when one has the liberty to think in the first place, then one must imagine Sisyphus happy.

Then why do I imagine Sisyphus winning?

Recently in a friends group chat, I playfully remarked, “While some call it the law of attraction, I prefer to call it healthy delusion.”( It reminds me of that white-haired guy who, despite repeatedly saying “Nah, I’d Win”, found himself sliced in half. It’s a witty example that aligns with Aristotle’s philosophy of fate versus free will.) This tagline is an invitation for those enthusiastic about the law of attraction and readers of books like “The Power of Your Subconscious Mind” to consider exploring genuine philosophy instead of pseudoscience.

By the way, if you’re interested in delving further into Absurdist fiction, I’d recommend not only the well-known figures like Camus, Beckett, and Ionesco but also the captivating works of Franz Kafka, who happens to be your favorite “insect guy.” His writings offer a unique perspective for those seeking to explore the realms of Absurdist literature.

Are There Really Turtles All The Way Down?

When I heard the phrase “Turtles All The Way Down” a familiar image of a four elephants holding the earth, standing on the back of a turtle flashed in front of my eyes. Perhaps we’ve seen this image on history or mythology books. But what does it have to do with John Green‘s coming of age novel? Well, clever enough Green is!

Famous scientist Bertand Russell once gave a lecture where a old woman contradicting him told that the earth is standing on turtles and its turtles all the way down. I wonder where those turtles end? And the answer is probably it’s endless. Similarly the phrase now works as a metaphor for endless spirals, just like the endless thought spirals of Aza; our heroine from the book titled….you guessed it haha. And the links don’t end here, guess what is the name of one of the most mysterious characters in the book- it’s RUSSEL Pickett.

Anyway so this Russel Pickett guy is a not-so-clean billionaire who goes missing, leaving his whole property behind to a Tuatara, a reptile [also, a living fossil] . So now his two sons are not only orphan but also penniless [and you thought you’ve got the most toxic father?] and while the older son [and our manic pixie dream boy] Davis wishes his father better not comes back, the younger guy Noah still idolizes his father [a phase we’ve all been through]. And if you cross one weird river; filled with algae and turtles; there lives our protagonist, Aza Holmes. It’s technically the river that brings Davis and Aza together as they once shared it as a playing ground when they were kids.

They meet again, The ‘sick girl’ and the ‘manic pixie’, but it’s anxiety this time instead of cancer!

You’ve probably got the reference! And this time they’re not bound by sickness but by the missing person ,Russel Picket, and the mystery revolving around his disappearance. So anyway, Aza is one day notified by her friend Daisy that the father of her childhood crush has gone missing, and Daisy doesn’t want to miss the chance of winning the prize-money. Thus they go to David’s and there once again they meet, Daisy and Tua….. okay no, David and Aza. And I don’t know if it is odd or natural or just destiny that Aza’s feelings are reciprocated by David.

The establishment of a secondary character to glorify the main lead – Daisy the e-girl

Ah Daisy! my favourite character whom John Green decided to portray in a not-so-good light. I would not be surprised if her theme song was Daisy by Ashnikko. And for me, it felt like the book was more about Aza and Daisy than Daisy’s romance with Davis. Daisy is bold, eccentric, alternative, has dyed hair, is open about her sexuality, and doesn’t give a F about honesty and chastity. These characters exist for two reasons mainly in books and movies- first, to be a cool breeze and free spirited heroine who ultimately brings chaos in the hero’s life and gives him a life lesson, and secondly, to be a supportive best friend to a more simple, lighter and reserved heroine. And it’s the second case here. Daisy was a really catchy character until Green made her look like selfish, money hungry and immature. It is like her whole point of existence was to highlight Aza’s kindness, her struggle with anxiety and how she is misunderstood when she can’t pay attention to others due to her internal turmoil. It’s simply victimizing one character and villainizing the others. If I were Daisy I would’ve felt too that Aza’s been a shitty friend! I mean I know dude you have struggles but I don’t want a bestie who doesn’t appreciate me or listen to me or doesn’t try to know anything about me. On the other hand Daisy is shown to be pure dumb, relating everything to her poverty , her mood fluctuates all the time and she makes hasty decisions and gives shallow reasonings- overall, childish and shallow and vengeful. Meanwhile Aza is self loathing and we have to sympathize with her because she has OCD and anxiety. I do think that Daisy making Aza a negative character in her fanfic is somewhat cruel but wow, are we forgetting that Aza started reading the fanfic only after David points out that she’s IN THEM. I would’ve loved Daisy if she wasn’t sooooo immature and relating everything with her poverty and using her poverty as an excuse of spending money, and duh her bitchy attitude when she acts like she’s better and superior than everything. But I still like Daisy more than Aza I’M SORRY.

The doomed teen romance

It’s typical ,nothing special. David is a good writer I must admit. Their romance doesn’t have any special elements other than Aza freaking out everytime they kiss because she thinks not only exchanging saliva is gross but also it can go as far as being the cause of her c.diff infections.

Apart than that I’m happy that Aza moves on and David stays as a sweet memory. And god bless David, the boy stayed strong in tough times, the most normal and unproblematic character imo, but just a character for me; he lacked the charms of being a ‘hero’.

And I think the pond of turtles plays some kind of significance in their romance.

The side characters

Aza’s teacher mom who villainizes and misunderstands David just because he’s rich. She is a typical helicopter mom who lost her husband and wants to be a good [over-protective] mother to her teen daughter with mental health issues.

Noah, the kid who hopes his dad will return. Outside he’s cool but inside he’s breaking. He’s seen causing trouble that draws attention to him, it is also described that it’s result of him wanting attention and affection but lacking a good parent figure.

Mychal, the artsy kid who looks like a giant baby as described by Daisy, he’s not that interesting but atleast good at making out.

The therapist Dr. Singh who’s a therapist.

A billionaire tuatara.

The Good and the Bad aspects in brief-

The good aspects-

> Sweet teen romance

> Realistic portrayal of OCD and Anxiety

> The friendship between Aza and Daisy lasts lifetime surprisingly

> Lighthearted story, not too much intellectual work to be done.

The bad aspects-

> Characters are not well written

> Story lacks depth

> Not every interesting

> Extremely repetitive storyline

Worth reading?

Depends on you. But if Your favourite movie ranges between “The Fault In Our Stars” or “To All The Boys” then you will surely love it.

Rating

I’ll give it 4/10

okay 5/10 cause I enjoyed reading Daizy and Aza’s fights and friendship goals.

How to know if you’re being gaslighted: a brief history of gaslighting

What is gaslighting

Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation where a person or a group (manipulator) make the other person or group(victim) question their reality, memories and doubt their sanity

Why the termgaslighting‘?


The term gaslighting comes from the 1938 British stage play “gaslight” by Patrick Hamilton which was later produced as a film with the same title in 1944
In the play, a woman is doubtful about her husband’s loyalty and becomes anxious as her husband leaves every night, his departure is marked by gaslights in their house dimming. When comes to know about this her husband tries to confront her that she’s making things up and it’s all in her head. But the gaslights, however, are strong evidence for her to realise that she’s not lying or insane.

What do gaslighters do to you?


• They withhold important information from you

• They counter the information to fit their perspective

• They often verbally abuse you or show passive-aggressive behaviour

• They try to minimise your self worth

• They hide things from you and play with your memory.
( For example, If you tell your abuser/manipulator that he’d been out last night and didn’t come until dawn, he might say that he was at home and you’re the one who slept the whole time and might have had a dream)


• They might try to cut you off from your friends and family and isolate you (so they can manipulate your memory and feed you their own stories )


• They’ll often tell you phrases like “It’s all in your head” or “you’re going insane”

Gaslighting often comes hand in hand with other dark manipulative traits such as narcissism

Are gaslighters always male partners?


According to philosophy professor Kate Abramson, the act of gaslighting is not always sexist but women tend to be frequent targets of gaslighting compared to men who often engage in gaslighting. And a gaslighter doesn’t need to be a romantic partner, they also can be your parent or someone in your family.


Examples of gaslighting in pop culture

The most famous example of gaslighting in pop culture is Mother Gothel from Rapunzel. We all know how Gothel isolated Rapunzel from the outer world and brainwashed her against the outside world, and when she was finally ready to leave the mother acted like she’s being ungrateful for the food and shelter she was provided.

Another victim of gaslighting in movies is Rachel from the 2016 mystery and psychological thriller film ‘The girl on the train’. During her marriage, Rachel’s ex-husband Tom was a violent abuser. When Rachel would blackout drunk he’d tell her that she had done terrible things that she’s incapable of remembering.

Gaslighting in media and politics


A gaslighter we all know? Hmm…You guessed it right! The former US President Donald Trump. According to CNN Trump first takes Coronavirus lightly then later he states “I’ve always known Corona Virus is a pandemic long before it was a pandemic “
He even said it’s a hoax and it’ll be over in April when it gets warmer.



So gaslighting can be pretty subtle and common, and gaslighters often put up a “good person” persona. So here are a few common phrases used by gaslighters –
°It’s all in your head
°You’re being overdramatic
°That never happened
°You’re too sensitive
°You’re imagining things
°You have a poor memory
°You can’t tolerate a joke

It’s not necessarily that if someone is using these phrases they’re gaslighting you, but if you are second-guessing yourself or relating to anything mentioned above its time to sit back and rethink!